曾经拥有

假如人生不曾相遇，我還是那個我，偶爾做做夢，然後，開始日復一日的奔波，淹沒在這喧囂的城市裡。 我不會了解，這個世界還有這樣的一個你，只有你能讓人回味，也只有你會讓我心醉。

一直以為幸福在遠方，在可以追逐的未來。後來才發現，那些擁抱過的人，握過的手、唱過的歌、流過的淚、愛過的人、所謂的曾經，就是幸福。

有個懂你的人，是最大的幸福。這個人，不一定十全十美，但他能讀懂你，能走進你的心靈深處，能看懂你心裡的一切。最懂你的人，總是會一直的在你身邊，默默守護你，不讓你受一點點的委屈。

人生不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。

This proven that you're not a gay

Heard a good news from my friend who is far away from Malaysia.

Finally he found his first 'very good' friend in his life.

But, I was being very selfish. I didn't congrats or wish him in his new relationship.

I told myself that I have to, I have to wish him because he is my best friend.

I'm suppose to share his happiness.

No matter how, I just couldn't say the words of blessing to him.

At that moment, my heart and my mind wasn't the same.

What a contradiction. Haha...

Actually, it is the heart controlling the mind or the mind controlling the heart?

One thing I can't deny is his 'very good' friend is nice looking. How lucky is he. =)

I think, anyone who become his 'very good' friend will be very very 'xing fu'.

Anyhow, he's a good guy (since no one has seen his bad side YET). lol

Collapsed mind

Whenever I feel stress, I cry.

Whenever I feel lonely, I cry.

Whenever I feel sad, I cry.

Maybe for sometimes, I cry for no reason.

Exam, stress, unhappiness....

Can you guys just stay away from my life?

Feel like want to give up now.

Thinking of those days, I have been trying

so hard just to get in here.

Sitting for MUET, SPM and many many

small test. And now, I'm still here.

Why am I thinking of giving up?

I feel so stress that no one could understand.

I'm afraid I couldn't handle it well.

I'm afraid I'll disappoint everyone who cares

about me.

I keep telling myself that I CAN I CAN I CAN DO IT!

But for this moment, my mind controlled me.

I have to face the reality. Exam is coming, stress as well.

Can I cry on your shoulder like a little girl?

Can I just don't bother everything at this moment?

I want to share my feelings with you.

Please support me, mentally. You are my pillar.

I feel helpless.

Goodbye dirty tooth....

I'm going to do scaling.

My friends told me

doing scaling is hurt.

Oh god!!! What should

I do to stay away from

the dirty tooth without

getting any pain???

Oh oh oh..... So suffer!!

I want beautiful, clean

tooth. Btw, I have

another problem here.

The dentist said I'm

having an open bite.

Opppssss.........

What's that???

Oo.. That's my

upper and lower jaws

can't close properly.

She suggested me to

do orthodontic.

She praise me that I'm

good looking, should get

the ortho done as soon

as possible.

Erm....... Okay, I know

I'm pretty. But ortho

would cost me around

8K in KL.

Anyway, I always look

pretty no matter I'm having

an open bite. WHO CARES???

Who should I talk to when I need someone be my audience?

No one ever knows how I passed through the times when I was alone.

When I need you, you are always not there for me. *emo-ing*

Please treat me better. I am the only who I am in this world.

Nothing change. I should have realize it at the very beginning.

Your promise still just remains as a promise. It will never come true.

Do you really have times to accompany me after your exam?

No, you don't have.

I'm sick of waiting and be the person who make the first step.

Whenever I received a phone message, I really

hope that it was from you. The truth is disappointment keep going.

Am I still the first one in your heart?

You are the one I always been missing

Feeling like missing someone in deep of my heart.

I know you couldn't be mine,

but I'll just keep you in the deepest place in my heart and will never forget.

Sometimes, it's better not to speak out the real feeling.

Let it be a little secret between us.

and let it become a beautiful fairy tale.

When we get old, the memories flash back,

we'll still remember each other,

remember our story.

That will let me feel gratify.

Nothing can stand forever but memories.

The memories is my property,

no one can steal them from me.

You make my memories worth recalling.

At this moment, I just want to say

I miss you.